At some point you need to quit fooling yourself and get help. Until you admit you have a problem and face up to it, things will only get worse as you dive deeper into your addiction. Maybe you can “control” your drinking for a short period of time, but that never lasts. Think you will feel lousy in recovery? You won’t. The fact is right now you feel miserable all the time and that’s why you drink. Eventually every struggling alcoholic realizes they need to sober up once and for all. Reach out and ask for help right now! And always remember to Stay Strong, Get Help, and Just Say No to Alcohol.